Me.

"Feeling of sadness, like the rainbow, it appears after the darkest moments of rain shower.

Its vibrant colors overwhelming... just as the sorrow flows within. And in time it will vanish as another, stronger source of light, comes."

Time. Every second of it is valuable for people like me. I can bear the long hours and hundreds of minutes waiting, knowing that I would see him before the day ends. Faithfully believing that the person I love is waiting for me as well. Nevertheless, trusting fate, that it will let me spend the rest of my most precious time with him.

Still...

Is it weird? Feeling sad, from too much longing? I tried so hard to convince myself to think positively. That things will get better every night. But, realizing that I am only allowed to spend so little of his time for me, with me, I began feeling... so desperate... a little nuisance (I guess) at times I wanted to talk to him before my given time...

Someone should knock my head off. Someone should fix my tear glands. Because until now, it keeps on producing saline solution in my eyes. Not good for someone like me who only weighs God-knows.

I AM SO SLOW IN ADAPTING AGAINST CHANGES. And I can't help it. I'm struggling. Because I know, that it is worth it.

I love him. SO MUCH!

I love him. That's why I would face every challenges ahead of me with strong-will and heart.

But right now... I just want to weep... until my heart calms down...

Because, even with my solid determination to hold on, still comes a girl who understood what it meant to stand alone in the dark.